The problem with being able to smell

So I’m sitting at my desk around lunchtime minding my own business when I start to smell that unique and truly magical smell of freshly fried chips.  And not just crappy chips from some local deli that are all soggy, I am talking about hand cut shoestring fries from one of the best little cafés in Perth; The Tuckshop Cafe.

Tuck Shop Cafe Chips

I couldn’t help it.  I got out of my seat and went over to take a look.  Just a look mind you.  There they were looking all crunchy and salty.  I wanted one.  No I wanted two.  No I actually wanted to eat the whole damn lot. I mean who wouldn’t?  I hadn’t had lunch yet as I was running around from one client meeting to the next all morning.

I was in very dangerous territory.

But I knew what to do.  You see I have this inspirational photograph that’s hanging on the wall right behind one of my computer screens.  It’s from an article about ‘curvy model Kate Upton’ from last month’s American Vogue – I have no idea why she isn’t a ‘normal’ model but that’s a whole other blog post.

Kate Upton Vogue

I can feel her smile, her confidence and that’s what I want and that’s what I’m going to get being on the Rensburg program.  I’m not going to get it from some basket of fries that will feel good for a couple of seconds – not to mention the guilt that will settle in for at least a few hours.

It’s also not so much about her body in this shot but the bathing suit.  When I hit my goal weight, these are the bathers I am going to buy, no matter what the cost.  Designed by Chanel, they are so beautiful that it makes all the pain now worth it now.

I think I need to carry this photo in my wallet as well come to think of it…

Salad Niçoise

Lunch today consisted of the most wonderfully filling Salad Niçoise (with Salmon) at The Brisbane Hotel.  It was just delicious.  I’m not allowed Salmon on this diet but I figured that this is healthier than red meat and I only ate around 100grams so I am in the clear.  The boiled eggs were left and I just ate the salad.

Yes, it had a few potatoes lurking in the bottom, but I will go easy with fruit tonight (oh lovely mango in my fridge, I’m coming to get you).

I weighed in yesterday with absolute fear.  I was convinced I had put on weight.  Much to my surprise and delight I had lost over 1kg.  I can live and work with that for sure.

Work is beginning to get very stressful and I’m an eater when stressed…

Lunch today

Today lunch consisted of:

Shaved Turkey breast (68)
Small tomato (7)
Spinach and rocket (17)
Carrot (20)
Rice cake (35)
Capsicum (pepper) (10)

c=157

I think it ‘s getting easier.  I think. Mind you it is Friday and all I can think about is having a very dirty vodka martini on the rocks after work.

This is definitely evidenced (apart from the whole martini thing) by the fact that the rest of the team have gone out for Dim Sum and I am left in the office to answer the phones and eat my turkey breast salad.

Tomorrow night I just know I am going to run into big troubles.  Mr. Man and I have accepted an invitation to degustation with my biggest client.  I mean I couldn’t say no now could I?  My anxiety levels are at an all time high thinking of how I can avoid the 7 courses.  No drinking, no problem.  You can excuse that on driving, but not eating…

A part of me wants to come clean and say “You know what, I can’t do that, but how about we go here (insert Thai restaurant).  You see the reason is, I’m taking responsibility for my health and degustation just doesn’t fit into the plan at the moment”.  But no, I chickened out.  You can’t hide when there is only four of you.  Now way, not at all.

The other thing I don’t want to do is starve myself before and after the meal so I make up the calories.  The main reason I’m back on the plan is to look after my health.

What to do, what to do…

Thought you might like to see the menu.  Any tips?