At this time I wrote my first post here on Carolyn Wants To Shrink I was weighing in at around 88kgs. Little did I realise that over the next 20 or so months I would put on another 10kgs. I am usually a happy chappie when I weigh between 60 and 65kgs. Now that is a whole lot of weight gain in anyone’s book.
There were a number of reasons as to why I was unhappy, eating too much, drinking too much – but when it comes down to it, I really didn’t like who I was and that resulted in me not looking after my body. So my body did something clever – it got bigger and bigger until I paid attention to it.
It will be six weeks ago tomorrow since I walked into Dr Rensburg’s office and began to take responsibility for what I was putting into my mouth and how I was nourishing my body.
The one thing I was most ‘scared’ about was not getting enough food (yes, how right I was). Crazy thing is I am around way more food than I need to be 24 hours a day – so what was it really?
Then it dawned on me… I was petrified of being hungry.
The one thing this program has taught me is it’s OK to be hungry. Nothing will happen to me if I’m hungry. I will not faint, I will not, not be able to work. I will be OK. I find an incredible amount of comfort in this fact, liberating almost.
Now I know that there will always be food to eat, and it’s OK to be hungry and my body will not fail me because I am not constantly feeding it.