About being a “new me”

I thought you all might like to see a picture of my beautiful boys!

At this time I wrote my first post here on Carolyn Wants To Shrink I was weighing in at around 88kgs.  Little did I realise that over the next 20 or so months I would put on another 10kgs.  I am usually a happy chappie when I weigh between 60 and 65kgs.  Now that is a whole lot of weight gain in anyone’s book.

There were a number of reasons as to why I was unhappy, eating too much, drinking too much – but when it comes down to it, I really didn’t like who I was and that resulted in me not looking after my body.  So my body did something clever – it got bigger and bigger until I paid attention to it.

It will be six weeks ago tomorrow since I walked into Dr Rensburg’s office and began to take responsibility for what I was putting into my mouth and how I was nourishing my body.

The one thing I was most ‘scared’ about was not getting enough food (yes, how right I was).  Crazy thing is I am around way more food than I need to be 24 hours a day – so what was it really?

Then it dawned on me…  I was petrified of being hungry.

The one thing this program has taught me is it’s OK to be hungry.  Nothing will happen to me if I’m hungry.  I will not faint, I will not, not be able to work.  I will be OK.  I find an incredible amount of comfort in this fact, liberating almost.

Now I know that there will always be food to eat, and it’s OK to be hungry and my body will not fail me because I am not constantly feeding it.

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