This online diary will document my struggle (and eventual success) to lose weight and become fit and healthy. I have decided to go with Weight Watchers on-line version of their program. I lost nearly 20lbs on it when I was living in New York City. I know it can work, so it’s a safe option for me. I officially started with WW on the 13th January, 2009.
I am at the heaviest I have ever been, weighing in at 87.5kgs (192.5lbs). I was shocked. When I last went on WW 7 years ago I thought I was heavy at 155lbs (70.4kgs).
Rather than beat myself up, I decided to take control and get down to a weight where I felt happy. I don’t need to be “skinny” or “thin” like I wanted to in my 20’s and 30’s. No, today I want to feel energetic, toned and beautiful. Especially for my boyfriend who supports and loves me no matter what my size.
I also want to examine the relationship I have with my body. Now into my 40’s, I expect less from it (I don’t want, or need to be perfect). I struggled with bulimia throughout my 20’s and 30’s. All I wanted to be was thin. I thought that if I could just do that, then the rest of my life would work out. Well it didn’t. I still felt big and ugly and drove away the people in my life that loved and accepted me for who I was.
After a very hard time, including a 2 month stint in hospital from depression in 2008, I am going make the most of my life in 2009 and beyond. I am in a great relationship, I am finally home after living away for nearly 20 years and I have just started my own business.
And so my journey starts…….